Wrapped Up In Bullshit

*Written April 10, 2009*

Ok, so I just had an encounter with a rude employee at a store near the campus area. I was trying to break a 20 so I could wash clothes, right? No biggie. To this employee it was though. I grabbed a bag of gummy bears that cost a 1.00 because for one I think it’s bullshit to make someone buy something JUST to give them change. Everybody’s a hustler…

So the cashier says to me. “You can’t buy one fucking thing with a 20 dollar bill.”

Out of line I know right. Now me, for those who know me can tell I’m very reserved, really quiet. My girlfriend is very outspoken and some read it as I am submissive which is not the case at all.

In this world people will get over on you anyway they can and will do their best to use you as much as possible. I know this since my own brother stole my identity and I am now fighting several credit cards that were opened in my name. Fucked up, I know, I know.

So as I think on how I should react to his rudeness, I decided not to get back at him because it is a waste of my time. I am above arguing with someone in a store over something so trivial. Then I said, “Well no one told me that last time I was here”. Then he was rude again and said, “Different fucks for different folks.” So I decided to leave before I got too upset and pulled into the bullshit.

I told my girlfriend shortly after and she took it upon herself to tell him off and got the store manager! She is very protective over the people she loves, but if I let it go, she should have too. So I’m like, “What is taking her so long?” Sure enough she comes out telling me that she got the manager and then her and the guy who was rude to me exchanged words.

Then she leaves heated as well, and tells me what happened. Shortly after that, he comes to where we were and asks me, “Did you say I was rude to you?” I said, “Yea” and kept walking. Then he says, “Well I’m on break holla at me now homie.” Inviting me to fight him. I avoid altercations at all costs because I have a very bad temper and the sheer insignificance of this situation pissed me off even more. Then I started having thoughts of him trying to fight my girl and then I would have killed him no hesitation, because you don’t fuck with my people.

Then I got a little upset with my girl because going back over there wasn’t necessary, I let it go because I knew what type of person I was dealing with. He obviously doesn’t care about his job, if he did he wouldn’t have talked to me like that. Now if somebody doesn’t care about their job in the times we live in now, what else don’t they care about?

Which brings me to my point: Wrapped up in bullshit.

How many times have you seen someone you know or even yourself engaged in something that is stupid? For you fellas, ever fought someone for accidently spilling a drink on you, or stepping on your shoes, or even looking at you wrong? Then after it was over you think that shit wasn’t worth it at all?

For you ladies, ever fought a girl because she was scheming on your man or talking about you behind your back or mugging you in the club? Then when time passes you look back and are like, “If he was my man, I wouldn’t have had to fight her, she would have heard it from him to back off.”

It is not arrogant to say certain things are beneath you. Look at 2Pac, he had no business in Vegas fighting that gang member. He was a celebrity fighting like a street thug. His mind was too great to not think.

You have to understand that some people have nothing to live for and can’t be reasoned with. Whether it’s their upbringing or life experiences something makes them more likely to explode over things that any reasonable person would ignore.

So what part does God play in all this?

Well, He is the protector of His people and anyone who dares mess with them or try to harm them will feel His wrath. So if that’s the case, we can rumble in the streets all we want and God will protect us right. Nah homie it doesn’t go down like that. If you lie with dogs expect to come up itching. You can’t invite drama and expect God to save you all the time. You deserve that if you stay mixed up in it. If you flee from it and live a good life and drama finds you then that’s a different story.

The point?
I got too much to live for and too much to accomplish to let somebody pull me down.

You should act like that too.

**Fueled by passion, driven by pain before I die the world will know my name**
- JioVanni