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Here you'll find my thoughts and experiences on life, poetry, topics centered on faith, health and anything else pressed upon me to speak about. All my work is original.

My aim is to create a platform for freedom of thought. Thoughts that initiate a change which becomes an action and after that a way of life. Thinking costs you nothing, not thinking can cost you everything.

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- J

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Learning Heartbreak


So usually it commences around 7:30 am or 8, most don't want to go so when they're there the end is something on which they can't wait. The stories are a bore, a trifling chore not worthy of the breath used to utter it, they wish this lame would change the subject. Don't know the answers to a test but the girls are quick to shake it to a hot beat & jiggle their ass & breasts. The boys hate long division but wanna last long when a woman divides her legs & they make their incision. Come on, why are things this way? No books in hard back, but you got boys so hard carrying their hood on their back. Issues with women learning or attempting to learn how to be women too fast, they have the body type so older men give her a pass. It's tight so the temptation is mighty, she's got a bump on her stomach that you thought came from too many Flamin' Hots, realizing she's with child you say, "Bly me!" Not British, but other accents are present when the mothers walk in dressed like classless sluts, is the black woman nothing but a vast production of similar dance moves with big butts?

"Why don't you tell that fuckin' little bitch to keep her hands off my daughter?! Why wasn't I told she got in a fight?" So intent on learning the nature of violence, but when it's Open House that same mother is conveniently busy that night. Is it no wonder that the youth have their priorities mixed up when their "parents" consistently make bad choices in the clutch? Quitting jobs without another to fall back on, but hardworking with her man when she puts the kids out to play so she can get her back blown. How do you learn to be classy from a mother that's trashy? How can you be a good man when you have no father figure & you hate your daddy?

You see the guys on the corner lookin' like everything's all gravy, you laugh at your mother when she says you should get a job @ the local Old Navy. Maybe there you learn more disrespect & give a pretty female a mean look when she asks a polite question, or maybe you know where something is but you don't tell her cuz it's not your section. Programmed to be boisterous from the movies & what they think is “black”, white people react differently when they get mad because they don’t have to have the shell, black people grow up fighting to be treated equally but it’s an ideology that is hard to sell. Long fake nails & inventive names that’ll get you laughed @ in the work force, destined by your surroundings to be nothing but a work horse. This is not because of your name or actions it’s because they don’t teach you in these schools how to make your money work for you, it’s only how to make a lot of dollars & live the good life.

3:00 pm rolls around the flagpole is a hotspot normally, little kids beating each other up & in this environment it’s just a state of normalcy. Little girls grow up around aggressive boys so some become attracted to the same because it’s all they know, but never realizing his aggression could make her the recipient of his next blow. Pregnant before you can drive, in jail before you’re really alive, one question I have for the government is why?

Nah, no more room for questions that will never have an answer, it’s not the way it is, it’s the way that’s convenient, all the real leaders been killed, we get the one’s they want us to have which is like givin’ us a “Heavy Dose” of NyQuil… I sleep no more, cuz I ponder of the days when we will have to creep no more, & not worry about getting’ killed comin’ from the corner store. The hood is a war zone where you can’t learn when weapons are always let off within a few yards, fuck the military if you make it out of the hood you deserve an HONORABLE DISCHARGE…

God help the children…

**Fueled by passion driven by pain, before I die the world will know my name**

- JioVanni